But Wait....

It seems like the last few weeks of going back and forth seeking an answer to our "big move" question has been like a merry-go-round rather than the teeter-totter I thought it was. While we were "in the midst" of the process it seemed like the ONLY options were going or not going, hence the feeling of being on a never ending teeter-totter. But, now, stepping back and seeing the journey itself, we are able to see so many things that we would have missed if all we were looking for was the answer itself.

Ironically, in the end, choosing not to move seemed like not making a decision at all to some. But, because from the very start we vowed to seek Him, we are now seeing blessings that I can not even begin to share them with you. Mainly because a lot of what was learned was, in the worlds eyes, minuscule, and yet for us life altering. And some lessons learned were between us the Lord. Not secret, just private. (thanks Bridget for that reminder)

I am so grateful to have ridden the Merry-go-round until the Great Conductor has deemed it time to get off. Oh, what I would have missed if I would have jumped off early.

Truly, the greatest lesson learned was in the waiting.

''WAIT"

Desperately, helplessly,longingly, I cried:
Quietly, patiently, lovingly God replied.
I begged and I wept for a clue to my fate,
and the Master so gently said, "Child, you must wait."
"Wait, you say, wait!" my indignant reply.
"Lord, I need answers, I need to know why!
Is Your hand shortened? Or have You not heard?
By Faith I have asked, and I am claiming Your Word.
My future and all to which I can relate
Hangs in the balance, and You tell me to WAIT?
"I'm needing a "Yes" a go-ahead sign.
Or even a "No" to which I can resign.
And Lord, You promised that if we believe
We need but to ask, and we shall receive.
And Lord, I've been asking, and this is my cry:
"I'm weary of asking! I need a reply!
"Then quietly, softly, I learned of my fate
As my Master replied once again, "You must wait."
So, I slumped in my chair, defeated and taunted
grumbled to God, "So I'm waiting....for what?"
He seemed then to kneel
And His eyes wept with mine,
And He tenderly said, "I could give you a sign.
I could shake the heavens, and darken the sun.
I could raise the dead, and cause mountains to run."
"All you seek, I could give, and pleased you would be.
You would have what you want-- But, you wouldn't know Me.
You'd not know the depth of My love for each saint;
You'd not know the power I give to the faint;
You'd not learn to see through the clouds of despair;
You'd not learn to trust just by knowing I'm there;
You'd not know the joy of resting in Me;
When darkness and silence were all you could see.
You'd never experience that fullness of love
As the peace of My Spirit descends like a dove;
You'd know that I give and I save, for a start,
But you'd not know the depth of the beat of my heart."
"The glow of My comfort late into the night,
The faith that I give when you walk without sight,
The depth that's beyond getting just what you have asked
Of an infinite God, who makes what you have last."
"You'd never know, should your pain quickly flee,
What it means that, "My Grace is sufficient for thee.
"Yes, your dreams for your loved one overnight would come true,
But oh, the loss if I lost what I'm doing in you!"
"So, be silent, My child and in time you will see...
That the greatest of gifts is to get to know Me.
And though oft' may My answers seem terribly late,
My most precious answer of all is still, "Wait.""